Cycles

I got so much built up feelings

I think I'm gonna implode

Don't have a healthy way to deal

Guess I just gotta go smoke

Or drink to push all the pain away

Or I'll just get a lil boo n fuck the feelings away

But those are just temporary fixes that'll last a few days

Before I get those same bad feelings that make me misbehave

I'm so sick of this shit

When are these feelings gonna change?

These are the best years of my life?

There ain't no fucking way

There's a lot on my mind and nothing at the same time

Feels like I'm living a dream, reality ain't what it seems

Please help me, God, I'm struggling to stay alive

Don't know how many more challenges I'm able to survive

Tryna fight to stay strong, but I've been fighting for so long

Demons whispering some crazy shit that's tempting in the ear

Falling back into habits and old patterns, I fear

That one day I'll break and take that one thing I can't take back

And I'll upset my friends and family who said all I did was laugh

And crack jokes, as they say they didn't see it coming from the start

When all I did was show them signs sum ain't right inside my heart

See, I just really want some rest, or just at best

To take a break

Cuz this reality ain't pretty, rather shitty, it's true

But it's only really shitty looking from that point of view

Life is all about perspective; think bad things, and that's what you'll get

Power of the tongue, speak good things

And good things are what you'll get

Just remind yourself that overall, you really are blessed

Don't let them demons drag you down when you're not feeling your best

All they do is cause more issues, more pain, more stress

Look up to the sky with confidence

Puff up your chest

You're here for a reason, yeah, you're different from the rest

Just keep fighting, results will come when you least expect